Who am I

I don't know who I am. I'm always so happy and I'm always smiling. But there is so much more to me than what you see. I make you laugh and smile when you are mad. I'm a cheerleader, some think I have it all. But most don't know the real me. I don't know the real me either. I feel like I'm wearing a mask that has nothing underneath. I'm always forgiving those who hurt me. I wear my heart on my sleeve. I always see the good in people, that must be why I always get hurt so easily. I don't understand why people have to talk bad about others just to make themselves feel better about themselves. We all need to get along,don't hold grudges. Why waste you time hating someone when you can forgive someone and go on with your life. That's what I do. Everyone says I'm a nice person, but I have hurt people too. It hurts me more than it hurts them. To see someone in pain or when I see a sad movie, I cry. I'm just a nice person. sometimes I can be the worst person ever but it hurts me when I am. I can be cruel to someone and when I am doing it I get this sick feeling in my stomach. Yea I keep being mean but when it is all said and done I really do regret it. I'm just your your average teenager tryig to live her life. I do not know who I am, but maybe by the end of high school I will have myself figured out.